I Need You.

My heart is restless in me, my wings are all worn out. I'm walking in the wilderness and I cannot get out. I need You, Oh, I need You; blessed Savior come. I need You, Oh, I need You; You're the every longing of my soul.

Oh, how I need You, Lord; I need Your perfect Word with tearful eyes to see the sin that I afford. I need to weep and pray for all the thousand ways that I have failed You just today.

My bed is soaked with sadness; my sadness has no end. A downward spiral of despair, and I keep falling in. I need You, Oh, I need You, to You my soul shall fly. I need You, Oh, I need You, Yaweh, how I love You more than life!

Oh, how I need You, Lord; I need Your perfect Word with tearful eyes to see the sin that I afford. I need to weep and pray for all the thousand ways that I have failed You just today.

Your silence is like death to me, so won't You hear my desperate plea? Your silence is like death to me, so won't You hear my desperate plea?

Today my soul is soaring way over mountains high. Though I can see the valleys, they're all just passing by. It's not that I am stronger, look at my feeble wings. But I've been lifted higher; Yaweh's lifted me in His own strength.

Oh, how I love You, Lord; I love Your perfect Word with tearful eyes to see the God who always will endure. Now I will celebrate for all the thousand ways that You have shown me grace and made my heart in grace to stay.

You've made my heart in grace to stay.

You make my heart in grace to stay...

I love Josh Bales. :)

So I just thought I'd post a quick update to say that things are better than ever. My mentor and I have (finally) started having a weekly meeting, and today we discussed my vision for combo quad as well as a few other things we've needed to talk about. He agreed wit hthe things I had to say and approved of my goals and ideas for the quad, so that was very encouraging. It was super nice to finally begin communicating.

Something I've been learning recently is how easy it is to become busy. Every weekend for the last month or so I've had a sleepover, movie night, or both. I'm also learning that sometimes when you least expect it, those sleepovers can be the perfect opportunity for a teenager to confess something to me, talk about things they've heard or seen, talk about a Bible question, ask for my advice, etc. For a while I was wondering if these things were completely selfish, the movie nights and sleepovers; if I was only going because I had fun and enjoyed spending time with these kids. Truth be told, that's why I go. But that's not always what brings me back. It's the opportunities they present me with to speak into a young person's life (haha, I'm an old people. :-P) Sometimes at church you be what people expect-- you put on the mask of perfection; perfect life, perfect family, perfect friends, perfect deeds. It can be difficult to be transparent and admit we've messed up. What I'm finding is that outside of that sometimes it's easier to be open. For me, it's a chance to be available and approachable, to be open about my views my experiences with more personal topics. It's fun, but with a purpose. It's not a waste of time, it's real life.

Just thought I'd share.

Peace.